His Scarred Heart

Ramblings of a Native American woman ..
Do you remember this kind of candy? B-B-Bats in banana, strawberry, and chocolate? Sugar Daddy pops? This is candy from the good ole days. While we were touring and shopping at St. Louis Union Station I purchased lots of candy at a candy store, mostly brands from my childhood that are hard to come by these days. I have my goods stashed in a safe place. Except my 2 yo has eaten almost all of my banana flavored ones!
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Yesterday as we were driving down I-44 back t0wards Oklahoma, I was viewing the beautiful and rugged Missouri country-side. I was thinking about 2 missing persons cases that are never far from my mind, Amanda K. Jones and Teresa Lynn Butler. In both of thier cases, my gut feeling is that the 'men' in thier lives is responsible for thier disappearences. Even tho in Amanda Jone's case, the suspect I have in mind is just the sperm donor(not husband) to the baby she was to have delivered just days after she disappeared. Both of these very much missed mothers are from Missouri. I wrote Has Amanda Jones Been Forgotten? awhile back and I now feel like her case is now cold. I first wrote about Teresa Butler here and followed with Part II. Teresa Butler's case has also taken on that chill of becoming a cold case. As I looked out the window at the lush green Ozarks and rocky terrain, billboards of Jesse James hideouts, caverns, and caves whizzed by on the edge of the interstate. I couldnt help but think, are these 2 women somewhere out in the Missouri wilderness waiting to be found?
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Underneath the MLK Bridge.
Happiness is bright red. It tastes like AMP energy Drink.
It smells like an orange. It sounds like me hitting shoulder pads with another player.
Happiness makes me want to play football.
Pretty good stuff, eh?
This is 18yo Jarret Clark, you can read about his fatal camping trip with friends here, PT.2 , and this post Jarret Clark's Body Found. I rec'ved a few comments from an anonymous individual who is very close to this case and possibly related to the alleged attacker. I am posting thier comments even tho I have no proof of what they say is true but I think this side of the story needs told. If anything comes out in the media to substantiate anything mentioned, I will post it asap.
"I am the brother of 2 of the witnesses i got to hear the whole story before anyone had except for a wagoner county sheriff. It was sun. about 730 pm me and my brother and sister and her bf were at my moms house for mothers day and we were out back sitting around a table when they told me what had happened that early morning. They had said jarret had told them that he had 13-20 xanax bars and drank a fifth of whiskey (thats a lot of drugs in your system) . They said he had been flirting with my brothers GF but nothing big and i know my brother and his gf they really dont care who flirts with who. They have been together for awhile, but when my brother went to his truck to get some blankets he said he seen jarret crawl in the tint with his gf so he snuck around the tint ease dropping and he didnt like what was going on so he grabbed jarrets ankles pulled him out of the tint jarret got up and they were bumping chest and thats when my sisters bf came over and broke it up. my brother got mad at his gf and started packing his stuff up. (he never said why he was mad at her but i think she may have came on to jarret also im not sure thats just how he made it sound) Then thats when my sister started packing also and jarret had left the camp site but only for a few minutes. When he came back he was upset because he thought they were trying to steal his car, but he did not realize that he had rode up there with Brandon my brother. He was upset enough that he wanted to fight my brother, but my brother never fought him instead he just kept loading his stuff up while arguing with his gf. Thats when jarret went to my sisters bf demanding his keys back. They argued for awhile until it turned into a fight where they exchanged a couple punches and then jarret had her bf in a head lock, but he had got out of it and my sister said lets go so thats when they all left and the last place they seen jarret was going into the woods. They shined there lights in the woods but didnt see him. That is what i heard last sun. take it for what its worth. I am very sorry for what has happened and my heart goes out to all of Jarret Clarks friends and especially Family.God bless all. "
"Detective Haley had spoken with all of them Monday and Tuesday they all went to show the detective where they were. The detective asked questions to each one of them individually. Wednesday They were all hanging low because of death threats and thursday Th body was found and the OSBI was questioning them all from 11 am to 330 pm then they all still layed low and friday the news had announced that the autopsy reports showed no physical trauma done to the body and friday night the chemical autopsy on the body had began and i know nothing else from there. "
Maybe Jarret Clark was heavily under the influence of too many chemicals and became disoriented after this fight and wandered off into the woods, then accidentally drowned, maybe.......maybe not. Until the autopsy results are known to the public, I can only speculate. But, 13-20 Xanax bars and a fifth of whiskey consumed by a 165lbs 18yo kid seems a bit much. I would think he would be unconcious and barely breathing than putting the make on someone else's girlfriend. I know about xanax, I used to pack around a huge RX bottle of them from my physician, especially after my near fatal car accident. This is a medicine that works wonders for people who need it and it is highly addictive if not used properly. 2 xanax bars would have rendered me unconcious even after I had a tolerance built up to the drug....
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St.Louis, here we come! I am getting really excited about our trip this friday. Even tho, St.Louis is not a new place for me, I love this city. My sis just emailed me and she said she cant wait either. The last time we were at the GatewayArch no trams were going up to the top because of a possible terrorist threat. I hope this trip we can go up to the top. I know hubby will decline, he hates heights!
____________________________________________________ MEN! What is with males of all ages and thier fascination with body functions and sounds? OMG! My 12yo on his way home from school friday informed me of his trip to the boys restroom after lunch. He said "No more school charburgers for me!"I do not need details! Especially ones with graphic noises. As long as everything is working, I do not need details. Then this morning, hubby strolls down the hallway and lets one rip. Gag! It lingered for about 20 minutes, even AFTER the air-freshner was sprayed and ventilation was provided. Son #1 heard him in the kitchen and shouts "wow, that was a good one dad!" Son #2, okay I cut him some slack because he is only 2 yo and still amazed at his own little, body ran down the hallway, sniffed and ran back to report to me that "Daddy farted and hes stinky". If theres a farter, son #2 will bust them, and he'll tell everyone within hearing who farted and where.
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I have a busy day planned after the Orkin Man gets here in about 15 minutes. So, y'all have a super monday and stay safe.
When I was a kid, I can remember at night just staring at the moon and wishing I could see a martian man or something. My cousins and I were always star-gazing and my Uncle J. knew the constellations and would show them to us. I wish I had paid better attention to them so now I would be able to show my kids. I ve shown them the big/little dippers but thats about all I remember. We have a decent working telescope that my hubby bought for son #1 a few years ago. When Venus and the last comet showers were easy to see, we got up in the middle of the night and took a look at them. It was pretty neat.