His Scarred Heart
Ramblings of a Native American woman ..
Ever since our wee one was born, I have wished openly for 3 arms, in a joking manner. But, all joking aside, this little fellow actually has 3 arms and doctors are trying to figure out what to do for him. The 3-armed baby named Jie-jie is 2 months old and also was born with 1 kidney. Neither of the boy's 2 left arms is fully functional and tests have so far been unable to determine which one was more developed. Jie-jie's hospital is one of China's most experienced in dealing with unusual birth defects, including separating conjoined twins. Like Jie-jie, many of the children are sent to relatively wealthy Shanghai from the poor inland province of Anhui. I hope this little guy is okay, this is sad.

Today I have been one step behind everybody else. My mental state seems to me to be a bit sluggish today, even after my 45 minute afternoon nap. Once I told my MD that I thought I had Adult ADD, he just laughed and told me I did not get near enough sleep as my body needed. I still think his diagnosis is wrong. Anyhow, this morning I set some ribeye steaks out to thaw for dinner. Hubby looks into the fridge and says "yumm, steak tonite". I commented that the steaks I was cooking tonite were from my friend F. over at Sugarcreek Ranch. A few weeks ago she was outside with one of her new foals as I sped down the highway, I did an impulsive u-turn and stopped to visit with her for a few minutes. I had not visited with her since basketball season when our son's played on opposing teams. I met her when I first moved to Oklahoma and we ran around in the same 'partying circle'. Her first husband was a complete asshole, but a wealthy one that she took to the bank in thier divorce. I was happy for her about that because her married life was pure hell. Back to the day we were visiting. I had a small cooler full of Indian Meatpies that I had ordered from M. on the reservation when they were taking orders and selling for a medical benefit. When M. is making the meatpies, I always order atleast 12 so I can stash some in the freezer, they are delicious. I gave 3 of them to F. because she likes them too, so in turn she offered me some steaks out of her sub-zero deep freeze. She had just sent some steers for butchering and filled her freezers. F.'s 12 yo son was leaving to spend the entire summer in Texas with his father, leaving F. home alone with her elderly mother. I glady accepted the 6 steaks and promised to sit with her at The Cattlemens Dinner coming up soon. So, as hubby and I are standing there looking at the 6 steaks, he says "why are you cooking all 6 of them?" then it dawns on me that I only need to cook 4 because our 12 yo is in MI. Hubby and son #1 usually eat 2 steaks, wee one and I only require 1 each. So I put back 2 of them in the freezer. That is how my day started. 
Do you remember this kind of candy? B-B-Bats in banana, strawberry, and chocolate? Sugar Daddy pops? This is candy from the good ole days. While we were touring and shopping at St. Louis Union Station I purchased lots of candy at a candy store, mostly brands from my childhood that are hard to come by these days. I have my goods stashed in a safe place. Except my 2 yo has eaten almost all of my banana flavored ones!
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Yesterday as we were driving down I-44 back t0wards Oklahoma, I was viewing the beautiful and rugged Missouri country-side. I was thinking about 2 missing persons cases that are never far from my mind, Amanda K. Jones and Teresa Lynn Butler. In both of thier cases, my gut feeling is that the 'men' in thier lives is responsible for thier disappearences. Even tho in Amanda Jone's case, the suspect I have in mind is just the sperm donor(not husband) to the baby she was to have delivered just days after she disappeared. Both of these very much missed mothers are from Missouri. I wrote Has Amanda Jones Been Forgotten? awhile back and I now feel like her case is now cold. I first wrote about Teresa Butler here and followed with Part II. Teresa Butler's case has also taken on that chill of becoming a cold case. As I looked out the window at the lush green Ozarks and rocky terrain, billboards of Jesse James hideouts, caverns, and caves whizzed by on the edge of the interstate. I couldnt help but think, are these 2 women somewhere out in the Missouri wilderness waiting to be found?
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The St. Louis Cardinals Stadium.
The Martin Luther King Bridge from the boat on the Mississippi River.
Underneath the MLK Bridge.
A happy news note, early tests show that the Fatal Attack On Great Dane Not From Africanized Bees. Yesterday I reported about how 100's of bees stung and killed a 120lbs great Dane in front of the dog's family. DNA tests show the bees were European, altho the tested bees will be sent to a lab in AZ to rule out any possibility of African lineage. Oh, so are they cross-breeding now? That really sucks. Oklahoma's Agriculture Department (website) says the closest case of Africanized bees to Sand Springs came last year in McIntosh County in Eastcentral Oklahoma. They also say a swarm of European bees can act aggressive if they've been exposed to Africanized bees. SCARY!
My state is working on passing a Bill that Allows Death Penalty For Sex Crimes Against Children . I am so HAPPY about this! I am pro-death penalty, it does need some reform tho, like a shorter appeals process ect.. but if this new law is passed in Oklahoma, it could set precedent for other states, its one step closer to getting these sick f*ckers off the streets permanently. This bill allows the death penalty to be assessed against a person who commits a 2nd sex offense against a child under 14 yo. This new proposal outlines specific crimes that on a 2nd offense against a child under 14yo could subject a person to life in prison or the death penalty. The crimes are anal or oral sodomy, rape, rape by instrumentation and lewd molestation. I should think the death penalty is fitting for such hideous crimes against children! of course I am sure some ACLU freak will jump on this bill saying it is not 'fair' or 'constitutional' or some such crap. But, I think if it passes my state's senate today, which I feel it will, Gov. Henry will feel obligated to sign it. As a mother, this bill speaks volumes on how we value the safety and security of our Nation's children.
My family would love to get a lab but instead we had to settle for our little mean 5lbs weenie dog, because of practicality purposes. Its too hot in Oklahoma where we live for a big dog-especially a lab. The creek is a ways away from home and I just think it would be unfair to have a big dog that would have to spend all thier life being shuffled from inside the house to the yard. Our mini-weenie dog Elvis doesnt mind it but hes such a lap dog who hates being outside. He is really going to be pissed when he is stuck inside his dog pen while we are gone to St.Louis! He has an awesome doghouse and plenty of shade, and my father-in-law will be by to check on
him and feed/water him 2X a day.
Happiness is bright red. It tastes like AMP energy Drink.
It smells like an orange. It sounds like me hitting shoulder pads with another player.
Happiness makes me want to play football.
Pretty good stuff, eh?
Today I slept in until 6:50 am! I was awakened not by my alarm but my horse whinnying his fool head off worried about his breakfast. It wasnt even late yet. The old guy stands in the corner of his pasture closest to the house where he can see all the going ons so he is not left out, like he would ever be..silly horse!
When I got out of bed I hurriedly checked the news and learned that Charlie Gibson will be the new nightly ABC'World News' Anchor and is leaving GMA . In the morning this is my family's favorite news program. It just wont be the same without Charlie sitting next to Diane Sawyer. Also I read that Barbaro showing improvement ! Iam happy about his recovery coming so well.
This scared the crap out of me, it was when I read about a Swarm Of Bees Kills Dog In Sand Springs. These bees killed a 120lbs Great Dane . Police say the dog was stung numerous times in the yard of a home at 6:45 last night. The state Agriculture (website ) Food and Forestry Department is investigating whether Africanized Killer Bees were involved. This is nothing to be taken lightly. Those bees are deadly and something to be reckoned with. Sand Springs is a small community NW of Tulsa. We do not have any kind of bees close to our home but we did have to get rid of 3 red Wasps nests. Those buggers are mean and thier sting is very painful, I know personally.
It looks like Lewis the attack cat is going to beat his date with the executioner! It seems that Lewis's owner is not taking the probation and going to court in defense of Lewis. Ruth Cisero, Lewis's owner, withdrew her bid for special probation and opted for a trial because Lewis would have to be euthanized. Even I jumped on the Free Lewis bandwagon and posted a story to keep him alive and free. Here is a quote from one of Lewis's neighbor:
Its HOT today, I just came by the bank about an hour ago and it was 99 degrees. I wish I had a pool, even a tiny wading pool.....maybe Ill go to Wal-Mart and buy a kiddie pool. Ours from last year had a hole in it by the end of summer..........





Barbaro's future is still a 'coin toss' his surgeon's say. Barbaro comes out of surgery looking pretty good from all the media pictures but do not be fooled, his chance of survival is 50/50. After surgery, Barbaro had a dip in a huge swimming pool before he was awakened from sedation, part of New Bolton's renowned recovery system that minimizes injury risks to thrashing horses coming awake. Barbaro was then brought back to his stall, where he could rest.

This is 18yo Jarret Clark, you can read about his fatal camping trip with friends here, PT.2 , and this post Jarret Clark's Body Found. I rec'ved a few comments from an anonymous individual who is very close to this case and possibly related to the alleged attacker. I am posting thier comments even tho I have no proof of what they say is true but I think this side of the story needs told. If anything comes out in the media to substantiate anything mentioned, I will post it asap.
"I am the brother of 2 of the witnesses i got to hear the whole story before anyone had except for a wagoner county sheriff. It was sun. about 730 pm me and my brother and sister and her bf were at my moms house for mothers day and we were out back sitting around a table when they told me what had happened that early morning. They had said jarret had told them that he had 13-20 xanax bars and drank a fifth of whiskey (thats a lot of drugs in your system) . They said he had been flirting with my brothers GF but nothing big and i know my brother and his gf they really dont care who flirts with who. They have been together for awhile, but when my brother went to his truck to get some blankets he said he seen jarret crawl in the tint with his gf so he snuck around the tint ease dropping and he didnt like what was going on so he grabbed jarrets ankles pulled him out of the tint jarret got up and they were bumping chest and thats when my sisters bf came over and broke it up. my brother got mad at his gf and started packing his stuff up. (he never said why he was mad at her but i think she may have came on to jarret also im not sure thats just how he made it sound) Then thats when my sister started packing also and jarret had left the camp site but only for a few minutes. When he came back he was upset because he thought they were trying to steal his car, but he did not realize that he had rode up there with Brandon my brother. He was upset enough that he wanted to fight my brother, but my brother never fought him instead he just kept loading his stuff up while arguing with his gf. Thats when jarret went to my sisters bf demanding his keys back. They argued for awhile until it turned into a fight where they exchanged a couple punches and then jarret had her bf in a head lock, but he had got out of it and my sister said lets go so thats when they all left and the last place they seen jarret was going into the woods. They shined there lights in the woods but didnt see him. That is what i heard last sun. take it for what its worth. I am very sorry for what has happened and my heart goes out to all of Jarret Clarks friends and especially Family.God bless all. "
"Detective Haley had spoken with all of them Monday and Tuesday they all went to show the detective where they were. The detective asked questions to each one of them individually. Wednesday They were all hanging low because of death threats and thursday Th body was found and the OSBI was questioning them all from 11 am to 330 pm then they all still layed low and friday the news had announced that the autopsy reports showed no physical trauma done to the body and friday night the chemical autopsy on the body had began and i know nothing else from there. "
Maybe Jarret Clark was heavily under the influence of too many chemicals and became disoriented after this fight and wandered off into the woods, then accidentally drowned, maybe.......maybe not. Until the autopsy results are known to the public, I can only speculate. But, 13-20 Xanax bars and a fifth of whiskey consumed by a 165lbs 18yo kid seems a bit much. I would think he would be unconcious and barely breathing than putting the make on someone else's girlfriend. I know about xanax, I used to pack around a huge RX bottle of them from my physician, especially after my near fatal car accident. This is a medicine that works wonders for people who need it and it is highly addictive if not used properly. 2 xanax bars would have rendered me unconcious even after I had a tolerance built up to the drug....
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St.Louis, here we come! I am getting really excited about our trip this friday. Even tho, St.Louis is not a new place for me, I love this city. My sis just emailed me and she said she cant wait either. The last time we were at the GatewayArch no trams were going up to the top because of a possible terrorist threat. I hope this trip we can go up to the top. I know hubby will decline, he hates heights!
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MEN! What is with males of all ages and thier fascination with body functions and sounds? OMG! My 12yo on his way home from school friday informed me of his trip to the boys restroom after lunch. He said "No more school charburgers for me!"I do not need details! Especially ones with graphic noises. As long as everything is working, I do not need details. Then this morning, hubby strolls down the hallway and lets one rip. Gag! It lingered for about 20 minutes, even AFTER the air-freshner was sprayed and ventilation was provided. Son #1 heard him in the kitchen and shouts "wow, that was a good one dad!" Son #2, okay I cut him some slack because he is only 2 yo and still amazed at his own little, body ran down the hallway, sniffed and ran back to report to me that "Daddy farted and hes stinky". If theres a farter, son #2 will bust them, and he'll tell everyone within hearing who farted and where.
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I have a busy day planned after the Orkin Man gets here in about 15 minutes. So, y'all have a super monday and stay safe.

Early this morning son #1, his friend, and hubby were watching some movie on TV before going fishing. Of course, I was busy doing my usual chores, I am not allowed the luxury of sitting thru an entire movie. In the movie it showed the characters drinking Absinthe. I happened to be walking thru the living room where they all were flopped around watching the TV, except son #2, he was jumping on the couch and making faces at himself in the mirror. I heard son #1 ask his father what absinthe was. Naturally, hubby being the 'man' he is, did not hear the question he was asked because he was in that 'zone' where all men go when they watch a television. That place where all thier attention is soley on the TV and what it is transmitting. As I was picking up the area rugs to take outside for a good shaking, I heard son #2 ask his father for a 3rd time in a louder voice. Hubby answered back "ask your mom, she might know" Yeah, I know what it is, but I'd never tell hubby that. Awhile back, he was standing over my shoulder when I was proof reading Ramblings From The Reservation: The Green Fairy . Hubby had no idea that this post was one of my real life experiences when he was able to read a small part of it. He just thought I was looking at some website. I shooed him away before he was able to read much of it. I hurried outside to get my area rugs clean and took my time doing it. After about 10 minutes when I returned indoors that part of the movie was over and done with. I packed them a cooler of iced tea, apples, 3 sandwiches, and a bag of chips for thier fishing trip and sent them happily on thier way ( after distracting son #2 from thier departure with his coloring books and non-toxic crayons).
sniff sniff....The undefeated horse and Kentucky Derby Winner, Barbaro suffered 2 fractures above and below the ankle on his right hind leg during the Preakness Stakes. The injury occurred in the 1st hundred yards after the field of 9 horses broke from the starting gate. Barbaro, was in the middle of the pack when he suddenly dropped back and was favoring his right rear leg. It's reported to be a serious fracture and will require major surgery to repair. Of course this awful event upset fans and even worse for the ones who viewed Barbaro being loaded into an equine ambulance and driven away,with his right hind leg in an inflatable equine cast. Barbaro was taken back to his barn, where he was X-rayed, tranquilized and stabilized before being transported the University of Pennsylvania's New Bolton Center, a veterinary hospital, in Kennett Square, Pa. Dr. Larry Bramlage of the American Association of Equine Practitioners said this about Barbaro's injury: "It's a serious fracture. This will require pretty major surgery. ... Keep your fingers crossed and say a prayer. His career is over. This is very life threatening. Under the best circumstances, we will try to save him as a stallion. A human would have to spend six weeks in bed with a comparable fracture, with a horse that's impossible."
These are my spurs, they are awful dirty. I wish someone would clean them and give them a good polish......
Have a super saturday!




An update about Jarret Clark. The young 18yo man who flirted with another young man's girlfriend while out on a camping outing. Jarret Clark was beaten badly and then left alone out in the Sequoyah Bay State Park near the Wahoo Bay by the alleged attacker jealous boyfriend. The alleged attacker has told many people that he did in fact beat up Jarret Clark and left him with his face in the dirt. The only sign of Jarret Clark after this attack is that his shoes and jacket have been found. The alleged attacker is rumoredly still dodging law enforcement and is/was in possession of Jarret Clark's cell phone. In my post Jarret Clark,Beaten & Missing PT.2 the last person to have spoken to Jarret on his own cell phone before his attack was his ex-girlfriend who he had asked to come out to the lake. Since the alleged attacker and a few other kids that were the last to see Jarret Clark alive are still hiding from police....I cannot but think Jarret Clark has been a victim of foul play.
This is not the kind of kitty I want residing in my neighborhood, rural as it is....this big cat would not be welcome. That was my first thought when I read about the Kentucky Family Fights to Keep Their Pet Lion. A married mother of 3 children who keeps a 400 lb lion in a 300-square-foot chain-link cage said she thinks of this animal as her own child. But a few neighbors disagree with Melissa Collins about her 'pet'. A county ordinance that would bar animals deemed "inherently dangerous" by the state of Kentucky is up for a vote this Friday. If it passes, Kitty(The lion) would no longer be allowed to stay in his rural neighborhood, where homes are within a few yards of each other. When Melissa Collins was asked whether she considered her lion to be dangerous, Collins insisted that any pet can be unpredictable. She doesn't feel that Kitty, thier pet lion (400lbs!) is a threat to her 5yo and 1yo boys or 3yo daughter. okay......Im not too worried about my horses getting loose, mauling a few humans, and consuming thier flesh nor am I too worried about my 5 lbs weenie dog, jumping our fence and attacking unsuspecting children playing in my rural neighborhood! I am not too worried about my neighboring rancher's herd of cattle rushing thier fence and attacking my boys and I while were outside in our yard or pastures. The Collins purchased Kitty the male lion when he was a 5lbs cub at a flea market. Collins said he obtained a state permit to bring the lion into Kentucky and a license to keep it in Floyd County Kentucky. I certainly do not want anything bad to happen to this magnificent beast but they are wild animals from a different country.....leave them there! I hope 'Kitty' has a safe and happy future on a wild animal reserve somewhere far from people's homes..
Kari over at Down & Out In Arkansas commented she was kinda cranky today like me. So, I thought I'd check the moon phase and see if a Full Moon was upon us. Nope! It is not. The last full moon was May 13th, 2006 and the next one is June 11th, 2006. So, I cant blame my crabbiness on the moon phase. Maybe its PMS, but I dont think so. Maybe I need a vacation from my family.....I bet that is the answer!
When I was a kid, I can remember at night just staring at the moon and wishing I could see a martian man or something. My cousins and I were always star-gazing and my Uncle J. knew the constellations and would show them to us. I wish I had paid better attention to them so now I would be able to show my kids. I ve shown them the big/little dippers but thats about all I remember. We have a decent working telescope that my hubby bought for son #1 a few years ago. When Venus and the last comet showers were easy to see, we got up in the middle of the night and took a look at them. It was pretty neat.